Mental Stability, A Free Spirit, and Eternal Gradittude

[Goofy]

Who determins how a man or women is classified when it comes to metal health... PHD's right.. of coarse, in the old age of indians, tribes and egyptians they had, medicine men, wichdoctors and alchemist. Most of toadays doctors rely on facts that they have discovered as students of the science and they take vows that they will not infringes upon certain lines of science to ensure that they are trusted and respected for the profession.

To question a doctor is not like acting as your own attourney in a court of law however there are simularities. They say acting as your own attourney is one of the stupidest things you could ever do as a suspect of the law. Why that is I would asume is because our system doesn't rley on fatih. It relys on fact,
independant truth and justice. So to question the system of justice is like staring a lion in the eye if he's in a cage he will do you no harm but if he's loose he'll tear you to peices. Now questioning a doctor is like playing russiion roulette with your life only there's no bullets in the gun. And You are constantly trying to figure out whats wrong with you when everyones telling you, you have a problem. But you can't see it because the problem is within you. And that certian problem is like a red light that is flashing in your head. The only thing is that you are not going to let someone tell you what you have to do with your body because it's you body. You either trust the doctor or pull the trigger.
In my case I have comepletly given in to the doctors and the system of justice. I know I am unstabile when it comes to my mental health the only problem is the illness I have been diagnosed with "Skitzo Form Disorder" Has no know cause and no know cure. So what the doctors are telling me is that yes you have a problem but we really don't know what we're talking about. Wow that a mirror reflection of myself. I speak my mind but I really have no clue where I am going with it it's all just by the seat of my pants.
Call me a a "Rasist Sick Bastard" But I have never put my self above God. The only way to the father is through the son. And the only to the son
is throught water baptisim for the forgiveness of your sins and then you receive the holy spirit. So if you want a free spirit you must be born again.
There are herbal sluplemnts for all sorts of sicknesses out there I have always had in mind that I want to be a spiritualist but I never really took the time to let my heart mind and soul grow. For one reason or another I grew up to fast. I'll be 30 years only this year and I have nothing to show for it which is probly a good thing.
I dunno I'm not dead, I'm not in jail, I've been throuogh some hard ships I've done some really stupid things that I am going to have to live with for the rest of my life but I'm eternally gratefull for the people who have looked at me and had mercy on me. When you find that "equallibrium" of truth love and fatih you realize that noting really maters eceept your realationships. FIrst wtih God and then with other people. So I am just eternally gratefull that I have been given the chance to start over and just live. If your going through hell now just hang on have faith and remember if you pay the price now, you won't have to pay it when you die the wadges of sin is death, if if you steal from god he will make oyu pay every penny when you die.